Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile Mariana, 240294. Fadzril's ever since 281209. I have amazing girlfriends. And a caring family. Tumblr. Facebook. Twitter Exits ♥Boyfriend♥ Nasuha♥ Shikin♥ Fadhlynn♥ Ary♥ Jiamin♥ Farah♥ Archives May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, July 29, 2010 School was so pressurizing today. Eventhough minimum knowledge was absorbed in my brain today, i feel so stressed over little things. To make matters worse, I wont be meeting him for the next three or four days. I do hope i could go out this Sunday to meet him. Kalau tak boleh, sad life ah. I really really want to meet him now. Anyway, Nafilah wants us girls to make our way down to Causeway Point just to have a taste on Banquet's Kway Teow Kerang. Wtfff?! Hahaha. Sumpah aku tak sanggup pergi Woodlands stakat makan kway teow kerang. So i'll be staying at home. Alone again. I want to watch a movie. Sorcerer's Apprentice. Anyone? Pleaseeeeeee. Dah ah, i dont know why im lacking of the good mood today. Goodbye Wednesday, July 28, 2010 Salam Sejahtera rakan-rakan sekalian. HAHA. School was normal. Mt was spent going through answers for paper while geography was well-spent by cracking jokes at one another. After which, i cant remember what happened in school. After school and tutorial, Fadzril fetched me from school cause i told him to. HAHA. Walked back home, he waited downstairs as i changed. Afterwhich, we proceeded to watch Inception. Love it. Cool graphics. Had our late lunch at Long John. Afterwhich went back to my area and spent some alone time. Love.Every.Moment.Spent.With.This.Boy. Gave hiim a long hug before i went home. I really didnt want to let him go. Ohwell. Best monthsary so far. Fadzril. I know i may not be the best to you or whatever, but trust me, You're the best i ever had. You showed me the meaning of true love. You taught me lessons throughout the relationship. I appreciate that. Now words cant describe how much deeply in love i am with you. But god, just those three words is enough. Muhd Fadzril bin Johar, I love you. And Happy 7th monthsary Bamm-bamm :) Hey. Reaaaaaal sorry for the lack of updates for the past two weeks or so. Been so busy with my preparations for O levels. I think i am improving slowly in my Add maths, I just hope by spending too much time on add maths, it wont jeopardize my emaths. And yes, my chemistry with chemistry is now a history. I used to love it so much when i'm in sec 3, i used to get A1s for it. Now, a failed grade. But hey, slowly im catching up. Just wish those formulas and equation doesnt have to be so confusing. And also, i've come to realised that i really despise teachers who shows favouritism in class. Fuck you, you dont deserve my attention. Now, my relationship. Gosh, I really wish i had the strength to endure all these "disasters" at home. I really cant bear to see my mum cry. I wont disappoint her, like how HE disappoint her. I could stab you a million times if i could, but i wont, cause afterall we're of the same blood. I still love you, but what you did, it's really too much. You lied to me, you lied to us. You're a selfish egoistic brat. Two-seventh of my family potrait is torn apart. God, give me all the strength that i need. Amin. See how fucked up my life has been even at this very year? Despite all this, i'm still glad that i have my rays of sunshines with me - Friends and boyfriend. They're the ones which keeps me going and alive. Without them, i would really be weak. They motivate me, encourage me and cared for me. I really cant imagine my life without them. But the one who has been tolerating to all the bullshits i had to offer is my beloved 7 months old Boyfriend. Ups and down, shaky at some point, but still intact. Words now really cant decribe how much i'm glad to have you in my life. Remember our promise, right from the beginning, okay baby? I really love you guys. You guys are like the beat of my heart. And i've made a promise to myself. To quit whatever bad habits i had. It's been two weeks, and i'm proud to say that it had nade me an even fresher person. Some may know, some dont. I know you guys would want some pictures to relive this blog a little right? Will miss you when you're gone. He was over at my place. I miss this girl. Two weeks. At work. During night study. Im pretty much excited for later. I will be meeting my dearest boy to celebrate our 7 monthsary. Goodnight. Saturday, July 10, 2010 Hey! Yesterday Fadzril was at my house. So impromptu cause he suddenly called and said he wanted to meet. Since i was cleaning my house, i invited him over lah. And also cause i was expecting a call from my aunt. hmm yeah. Still happy to meet him cause i was really having bad day yesterday. Bye i wanna bathe ah. heh Friday, July 9, 2010 To Family. I'm sorry for being such a disappoinment or a disgrace to you guys. I seriously can't live up to your expectations. I'll try my very best to score well for my O levels and hopefully, for once, you will be proud of me. Love you guys. To Friends. Thanks for being such great friends, my four girls especially. We've been together for almost 4 years now. We've been through thick and thin together. I thank god for meeting you guys, really. & I'm sorry if you guys cant tolerate any of my nonsense for the past 3 and a half years. I'm sorry if i had said whatever that had hurt any of your feelings. Im sorry. To Boyfriend. Gosh, we've been together for 6months and 11 days. And we've been through ALOT. Ups and downs. I really love it when we just sit down and just talk about anything. Watch cartoons together. And i really love it when we hug. I felt warmth, comfort and love when we hug. It still brings me that little spark in my body when we kissed. Besides all those good times we've spent, there are some downside in our relationship. And for that, i apologise if i have ever hurt your feelings, treating you badly and been giving you attitudes since day one. I didnt mean to, i had no intention. I still love you as much as i loved you the day before. And i swear to god that's the truth. Once again, i'm really sorry. I know it's not hari raya, but i've been doing some reflection lately. Thursday, July 8, 2010 I had a screwed Thursday afternoon. A fucking screwed one. Fucking screwed my fuck oral today. I fucking said tak tahu for one of the questions. Fuck it seriously. I teared up after my fucking oral. Please, at least a merit. I didnt bring my wallet today, which means i didnt bring my ezlink or ic. What the fuck is wrong with me today? Seriously. The theme for my oral was fucking simple, about Hobbies. And i fucking screwed up. I dont know what to do now. And my oral is not the only thing that i'm worried about now. Screw my life. Sunday, July 4, 2010 Im in such a dilemma. Should i or should i not cut my fringe? Forget it. So it was a stay-at-home Saturday for me. Nothing much though. I didnt study cause i dont like to study on a Saturday. Watched tv, entertain dhiya and all those craps. Ate quite alot. And yesterday, my sister was talking to my father about marriage, wanting to get his approval. Must wait until two or years cause my cousins are getting married too. So my sister getting engaged ah. Then suddenly my father asked me, "Ana pun nak tunang kan? Ana ade matair kan, pikir abah tak tahu eh". Hahaha i shocked then i smile. Hahaha. Anyway, later meeting Fadzril. Takleh sabar! Hehhhh. My friends are going to some gig at blackhole, but im not. Malas ah haha. Got the Rock Show what, okay itu pun belum confirm. Kay im hungry. Bye Friday, July 2, 2010 My phone has been a bitch for the past hour, and Fadzril told me to msg him only. Whatever he says. I've been switching it on and off for countless of times, yet it's not fully alive yet. Hmm. Tmrw, i've no plans yet i guess. But i really really need to take pictures for Art. The only problem im facing right now - No one is willing to accompany me to take pictures. Sedih kan. Oh well, story of my life. School. Half an hour of Maths. After which was Career day. I won a teddy bear. I got to attend three talk of three different courses - Engineering, Design and Business. Sume interested, but for engineering Im only interested in TP and NP. Cari tissue siket peh susah waktu recess. hahahaha. School ended at 12.20 for us. Reached home at 12.40. Wait one hour then i sleep till 4. 10 more mins Scary Movie nak start. And i haven't reply Baby's msg cause i still have yet to receive it since my phone is being a bitch now. Kay ah, byebye. Sumpah bende ni buat pening kepale. Tak tahu nak kene buat ape sia Thursday, July 1, 2010 Hey there. Actually i dont know what to write. Been meeting boyfriend since monday, i loike. He's coming here later. Meanwhile, i'm resting at home, like finally! I got a new phone, since my current is bitching with me. It lags everytime i delete messages. Lag maha lag sia! Until need to on off the phone like more than 10 times. Kay forget it. So... I didn't drop amaths,decided to do the subject since it was already paid. I studied real hard for it for the past few days. I understood integration, i can do the questions without having to check the other workings. And also getting the right answer. This weekend i shall do emaths since i have a test next week. Tomorrow there's only one hour of maths and the rest is Career Day. Hope it will be interesting since i'm going to consider the courses. But i want a course which has got to do with Media, and also requires either Add maths or Art. eddited/ Didn't go out today. Didnt meet him. So forget about the part"He's coming here later". Wont be meeting him tmrw too cause he have some activities going on in school. Went post office to help my sister collect her dress. Buy Mac. I think i'm falling sick. I feel like vomitting. hmm, Im now alone at home, not a single soul is entertaining me right now. Let me emphasize on that, NO ONE. Nvm, im going to do a-maths homework later.
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay